For the next week, I hid. Like a pussy. I buried myself in books and school and nothing else. I ignored everything—my phone, my classes, even food—in order to avoid facing what I’d done.
I should have never allowed it to happen—to get that far.
When she touched me though, it was with a reverence I’d never felt before. From anyone. It made parts in my body tingle that I didn’t even know existed. She smelled like coconut and rain, and the scent and the feeling combined together made me stupid. Stupid enough to make one of the biggest mistakes of my life.
Because no matter what I did now, my chances were probably ruined. Nice girls like her didn't give assholes like me second chances.
I kept expecting Jasper to come pounding on my door, to follow through on his promise to beat my face in if I hurt her again.
He never showed up.
Neither did she.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
I Just Needed You, Chapter 6 Teaser
Every lesson, it became easier and easier to talk to him, until we were able to converse without screaming at each other. We still irritated each other, naturally, but I didn’t mind that so much. He was really fun when he got all pissy.
The last few weeks, when our lessons had finished, we’d lingered and talked. Our game had far surpassed the twenty question limit, but I was still eager to learn more. And, it seemed, so was he.
The more time we spent here, the more I found myself attracted to him. I loved the way he played with the ring in his lip when he was agitated, and how his fingers played background melodies of their own volition when he talked. It seemed to be such a natural, intrinsic part of him, and it made me smile often. I’d even started to find it adorable when he got really worked up about something, how his hands would move while he explained and his eyes would grow bigger with each word.
Arriving at the door, I pulled it open and looked up at the stage. He stopped playing and turned on the bench to watch me.
“I'm still shocked every time you come back,” he called out to me as I walked in.
The last few weeks, when our lessons had finished, we’d lingered and talked. Our game had far surpassed the twenty question limit, but I was still eager to learn more. And, it seemed, so was he.
The more time we spent here, the more I found myself attracted to him. I loved the way he played with the ring in his lip when he was agitated, and how his fingers played background melodies of their own volition when he talked. It seemed to be such a natural, intrinsic part of him, and it made me smile often. I’d even started to find it adorable when he got really worked up about something, how his hands would move while he explained and his eyes would grow bigger with each word.
Arriving at the door, I pulled it open and looked up at the stage. He stopped playing and turned on the bench to watch me.
“I'm still shocked every time you come back,” he called out to me as I walked in.
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Friday, August 27, 2010
I Just Needed You, Chapter 5 Teaser
Every emotion—hate, fear, anger, pain—I’d been holding in for the last eight months flew out of my fingers and echoed through the auditorium.
Of all the things that could have opened me up, all the things that could have made me feel again, it had to be a girl I hadn’t even wanted to like. No matter how hard I tried to force them away, her words ran on repeat through my mind—her claim that I knew nothing about her.
What bothered me the most was that I knew she was right. I didn’t know anything.
I’d wanted to make myself believe I did; to believe that I knew everything. Trust that, if I continued to let myself imagine her as a vapid, shell of a girl, she couldn’t get any deeper under my skin than she already had.
I was determined to convince myself that the draw I’d started to feel toward her meant nothing.
Of all the things that could have opened me up, all the things that could have made me feel again, it had to be a girl I hadn’t even wanted to like. No matter how hard I tried to force them away, her words ran on repeat through my mind—her claim that I knew nothing about her.
What bothered me the most was that I knew she was right. I didn’t know anything.
I’d wanted to make myself believe I did; to believe that I knew everything. Trust that, if I continued to let myself imagine her as a vapid, shell of a girl, she couldn’t get any deeper under my skin than she already had.
I was determined to convince myself that the draw I’d started to feel toward her meant nothing.
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Thursday, August 26, 2010
I Just Needed You, Chapter 4 Teaser
“Well what do you know, she came back,” he joked, grinning at me from the bench as he crossed his arms in front of his chest and kicked his feet out in front of him.
“Of course I did,” I responded, annoyed. “Why wouldn't I?”
“I thought for sure you would head straight to Banner and demand a new teacher.” He smirked and raised an eyebrow at me.
I snorted, trying to keep the guilty look off of my face as I shrugged my shoulders. I forced a sweet smile on before walking up the steps and asking, “Why ever would I do that?” I placed my hand against my chest and fluttered my eyelashes. “Then I wouldn't be graced with you and your lovable attitude every week.”
“Of course I did,” I responded, annoyed. “Why wouldn't I?”
“I thought for sure you would head straight to Banner and demand a new teacher.” He smirked and raised an eyebrow at me.
I snorted, trying to keep the guilty look off of my face as I shrugged my shoulders. I forced a sweet smile on before walking up the steps and asking, “Why ever would I do that?” I placed my hand against my chest and fluttered my eyelashes. “Then I wouldn't be graced with you and your lovable attitude every week.”
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Wednesday, August 25, 2010
I Just Needed You, Chapter 3 Teaser
Blondie had somehow wiggled herself around to straddle me, and was entertaining herself with the ring in my lip. She kept flicking her tongue against it and tugging on it with her teeth while asking me stupid ass questions. I found myself quickly becoming annoyed, but I tried to force myself into numbness, believing that if I gave it time, the feeling would lessen.
Plus, it kept other fuckers the hell away from me.
I was pulled abruptly from answering her latest question when I heard Mike's voice come through a break in the heavy music. I groaned, opening my eyes and searching the room. I hoped the fucker wouldn't come over and try to talk to us like he usually did.
To my disappointment, it wasn't long before he walked in with his arm draped all casual over some chicks arm. Her face was obstructed from my view by the blonde in front of me; all I could see was a flash of long, pale legs in a short skirt. On the outside of her right thigh, peeking out from the edge of her skirt, was what looked like a pair of wings shrouded in color.
Poor Girl...
Plus, it kept other fuckers the hell away from me.
I was pulled abruptly from answering her latest question when I heard Mike's voice come through a break in the heavy music. I groaned, opening my eyes and searching the room. I hoped the fucker wouldn't come over and try to talk to us like he usually did.
To my disappointment, it wasn't long before he walked in with his arm draped all casual over some chicks arm. Her face was obstructed from my view by the blonde in front of me; all I could see was a flash of long, pale legs in a short skirt. On the outside of her right thigh, peeking out from the edge of her skirt, was what looked like a pair of wings shrouded in color.
Poor Girl...
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Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Lesson One
Thanks to IzzyHeartsRob, this is the piece Edward is playing when Bella walks into the auditorium. ;)
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Monday, August 23, 2010
I Just Needed You
New story posted today! Thank you to Jaime for making me her bitch and giving me the prompt to create this fun little story. You're the best. :)
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